Chasing Shadows

We spend our entire lives searching for the things we have already found in our dreams.

Cresting

Ride the highs while you have them.

The Price of Change

At some point in time, someone looked at the world and it's shortcomings and decided that happiness should not cost a cent more than the thought of it. They coined the phrase that "the best things in life are free", and since that day we've come to haphazardly throw the term around as if it meant something. The truth, however, is that nothing good in life is free, much less the best things. We would like to think love was an item that was at large for the taking, that love is a happiness one can find when they're penniless and heart broken. But even love has a price tag, and sometimes that emotional toll can be absolute. Not even the air we breath comes without a price, and though it may seem harmless we pay its toll in free radicals hurting through our bodies. The same goes for the sun, whose rays of golden light afford us everything we know while inflicting tiny fees paid in the mating of cytosine nucleotides. Nothing in this life is free, though perhaps some are better equipped to bear such expenses.

Today I find myself haggling with the world. It knows all too well what I desire, and thus holds all the cards in this transaction. It also knows the valuables I hide to myself in places I keep most safe. This becomes a problem, as I feel as though I have finally found a road to lead me somewhere I want to go, but find myself at a toll booth that asks for the very vehicle I've used to arrive at it. Do I give everything I hold dear for the opportunity to march into uncharted waters? Or do I hold fast to the things I value and turn back to the world I run from? I already know the answer to this question, but somehow I find myself still clinging to the one last thing I must give away.

Nothing in this life is free. Our only hope is that at the end of the day we will find ourselves richer than the day before. Some pay a steep price to ascend, while others pay almost nothing. For me it is everything. I wonder if I am not already wealthy in a currency more valuable that what I will receive.

Good Sportsmanship

Sometimes you simply have to tip your hat and acknowledge the world on a job well done. I could not have imagined feeling so poorly today... well played.

Despairity

He asks me if I've ever strongly disliked or hated my life.

I just laugh and turn the computer off... I can't even remember the last time I liked my life.

You could cut the irony with a knife.