Perspective

Everything we experience in this world comes from our own unique perspectives. Whether as individuals or mankind as a race, we quantify the world based on our own standards. I think this is one of the main factors that prohibit us from making large strides in understanding existence. We get about 80 years on this planet, and thus we characterize the entire universe based on viewpoints of less than a century. This is why we go crazy over things like global warming; our sample size is so small that we fail to the see the big picture.
Why?
Is it because we subconsciously reject the futility of our own existence in a massive universe? Or do we simply lack the awareness? Or do we even care?

You start to think about how insignificant you are and wonder what the point to anything is. Meanwhile, the person next to you is caught up in the inconsequential details of life, obsessed with the mundane. Don't they understand? Don't they realize? I don't think they would even if you told them. Before long you start to wonder why you feel this way in a world that feels the opposite? Am I crazy or are they? Or are we both? What can I gain in my 80 years that won't be washed away in another 80, like a footprint on a sandy beach? Aren't we all just footprints? Some are deeper than others, sure, but in time they all fade.

And it's not as if life were easy. On the whole it can seem very daunting, especially for someone in my shoes. What will change that? What can I hope to find that will make me think every minute on this planet is worthwhile? Is there anything? And even if there is, would it really change my mind or merely distract me from the reality of our existence?

What will tip the scales and outweigh the burden of life? I don't think anything will, not for me at least. Yet I continue searching for an answer in the dark, following breadcrumbs, searching for a light switch. And so does everyone else. And none of it makes sense. I have less than 80 years left to find that light switch. Or maybe I have less than 80 until it finds me.